15 Years In: Reflecting on Resilience and Finding Hope

I’ve been fighting it, but I think I’m struggling with depression. This dark, cold season of the year hasn’t helped-I told my husband recently that I underestimated just how much it is affecting me. I know I need to prepare differently for next year. But deep down, I know it’s not just winter that’s at the root of it all. However, I can’t quite put my finger on it.

And snapping out of it? That’s not happening. I even Googled “How to get over depression.” I’ve found some practical suggestions, and I’m trying them. But on the surface, I feel sad. When I dig deeper, I realize I’m mourning.

This past year has been relentless. Wave after wave, challenge after challenge, I pushed forward without pause. And now that everything has slowed, it’s all catching up to me.

The Weight of 15 Years

This year marks 15 years since I started my business. Fifteen years of victories, setbacks, lessons, and growth. But every time something happens that throws us off course, I feel like I lose a piece of myself. I recover, but I’m never quite the same. I feel like a rock on the beach, slowly eroding over time.

December, in particular, was brutal.

We’d been preparing for months to transition a critical team member out temporarily as…