Why Is It So Hard To Find Balance Right Now?

I’ve been feeling out of whack lately. My anxiety levels are at an all-time high and my OCD is through the roof. All of us have experienced exponential change as a result of the pandemic, so it’s quite possible you are feeling the same way. In May, I labeled this as the hidden anxiety of COVID-19. Five months later, it’s clear there’s little hidden about the emotional toll this has taken.

Despite the sudden halt in routine and lifestyle, I still pushed forward with all of the things that I had planned. We replaced our deck, upgraded the appliances in our kitchen, and took a family vacation to the beach. I kept the business running on all cylinders, despite drastic client adjustments in response to the pandemic. Unexpected changes occurred in our personal lives, as well. My husband switched jobs, I uncovered some health issues, and we experienced an unfortunate family crisis.

There’s a lot to be said for determination and drive. Without it, I wouldn’t be where I am. But, even a good quality can become unhealthy when overused. This is one of those circumstances. I realize that I never adjusted my overzealous drive to match the circumstances around the pandemic. I just kept going. And now that I’ve become accustomed to this non-stop, self-imposed expectation, it’s even more challenging to try to find balance.